Truth Spoken from Violence

I've been lost
so long now
and I'm so tired of running
Tired of the fear...

I chose to stay but at what cost?
A smile can not hide this frown
I can't go on lying, sinning...
I want someone other than you, here

Your violence was just too much
Your voice haunts my dreams
I tried telling myself you're the one
But I've just been kidding myself

It's not like I'm in love, as such
I've gone mad, it seems
How could I have been so dumb?
I'm only staying with you for the good of my health
How can I tell you how I feel,
without you raising your hand?
How can I tell you what I think,
without you raising a fist?

You say I'm nothing without you, how can I reveal
You are not the one I imagine, hand in hand
walking on sand?
And before I look to the bottom of another bottle,
and take another drink...

Think about who took you under their wing.