Dear Mother, Dear Father, Dear Brother, Dear Friend

Dear Mother.

I made a pretty picture

It’s all over the floor

I’d show you how I did it

But I can’t reach the door

Did you ever really love me?

Not as far as I could tell

I’m sorry but you’ve helped them

Make my life a living hell

The handle’s too far up

It’s locked and I have no key

But something horrible has happened

I just wish you could have seen

Dear Father.

Are you shouting loud enough?

‘cause I don’t think I can hear you

Be happy that I’m hurt

I don’t want to be anywhere near you

Did you ever really care

That you made me feel like shit?

I was just a slave to you

You used my life as you saw fit

Life with you was always a contest

Are you happy with me in pain?

Because of you, I’m a danger

You never really cared if I was okay

Dear Brother.

Where are you today?

Will you find yourself tonight?

In your reverie of pain

Please don’t start another fight

I see you’re really troubled

But I don’t give a damn

You never treated me

Like the human I am

Did you ever really smile

Or was it just mockery?

You’re an ass in the hole

Just another accessory.

Dear Friend.

I’m sorry that I did this

U wish it were better

There are things you need to know

That aren’t in this letter

I’m sorry I couldn’t stay

I knew I wouldn’t last

I told you not to worry

But that was in the past

I wish you could have heard me

The nights I cried for you

I know you said you loved me

But I wish it wasn’t true

I didn’t want to do it

But I felt I had no choice

Now I’m dead and gone

And all but you rejoice

If I could, I’d let you in

So you could see me one last time

But I lie still on the floor

Just know you’re always mine

Such an easy place to end it

This bathroom is my deathbed

Don’t waste your tears on me

Look at the blood that I have shed …

… that is still spilling from my arms

Pooling around me

I drowned in my depression

For all the world to see

Don’t end up like me

I beg you to get help

If I save you it’ll be

The last thing that I felt.

Hear me one last time

I love you, my best friend

Always and Forever

But I’m sorry, I’ve reached my end

See how much I love you

On the arm, on which I wrote,

I’m sorry dear [name removed]

This is my suicide note.