Relationships Part I

See/ I dunno what I did to make you wreak/ Havoc on my heart/ But to suss it out/ Well I guess I gotta go right back to the start/ Yuo abused my trust, I still can't believe what you did, it's like our relationship has gone from perfect to bleak/ Our connection is unique/ Our love antique/ When I think of you my knees go weak/ I can't speak/ But that all changed when you decided to sneak/ Behind my back and betray me. Wow, you got some cheek/ Don't ya? Bet you never thought I could have a nasty streak/ Now you're up shit creek/ Without a paddle. You lay your heart down, I keep a veil of mystique/ If you could take a peek/ Into my mind, just one glance will show my mental technique/ I wanna hurt you like you hurt me, I may appear weak/ But I'm certainly not meek/ See I know you're not perfect but I never thought you were oblique/ I started to believe we were meant to be/ That you loved me/ But the way you fucked me up, wow that was neat!/ In the fight for my life that feels like trick or treat/ You definitely have me beat/ You tore me/ apart, now I'm incomplete/ Your deceit/ Speaks volumes to me/ i don't wanna fight, after all I'm not made of re/inforced concrete/ I give up, I retreat/ You lied to me/ You're just another cheat/ You treat/ me like a piece of meat/ Why don't you grab a ringside seat?/ I walk down these streets/ Feeling like it's my fault, I must be obsolete/ I won't ever claim to be perfect, I'm definitely not elite/ 'Cuz I know I was never good enough, tryin' to keep up with you is some unbelievable feat/ I'm freaking out right now, quick, where's the ejector seat?/ My sanity is crashing down like Wall Street/ In 1929. It's true, to be honest, without you, I'm not complete/ I can't sleep/ Can't eat/ Without you, I'm no athlete/ Unlike you. Right now, i refuse to be discreet/ You really must fucking hate me/ After what you did to me/ What you've done to me/ Made me feel like I was nothing, when all I ever did was be there for you when you felt shitty/ Picked you up when others put you down like you were dirt/ You didn't just betray me/ You hurt/ me/ But you were always too busy/ With Carly, Lara/ or Tara/ This is the point where you'll try and calm me down, tell me it's all in my mind. But no! I will assert myself/ Because I'm alert/ To the fact that you're purposely trying to avert/ My attention/ Can't you feel the tension/ In the room? Bet you're feeling some suspension/ Apprehension/ But I'll keep it going a little longer, 'cuz you wore me out with your games, what I'm feeling is out of your comprehension/ Shall I just take you/ To the heart/ Of why I refuse/ To trust you?/ I refute/ Your claim that you don't hate me/ This anger is constantly building up, I'm feeling like the Incredible Hulk. I wanna teat off my shirt. I've grown still, and inert/ But I'm shaky, I'm about to wobble like Gelatine/ and fall like the machine/ at the end of the Terminator, and like that I'll get back up and get back into my routine/ All these words are just a smokescreen/ Distracting away from the true heart/ Of the matter/ The problem is whenever we get close, "the love kickstarts/ again", I'm tired of it/ So fuck it/ I'm sick of this shit/ You broke me down, but I'm buildin' it/ Back up, bit/ By bit/ "Brick/ By boring Brick"/ Like Paramore named their song, fuck it/ I've had enough of this stupid shit/ Before you get close, I'll leg it/ Before I lose it/ Curb it/ I'm trying to acquit/ My heart from the way it feels for you, I refuse to admit/ My feelings, you tell me that you're sorry, I don't buy it/ I'm sick of fighting, I submit/ I'm one step short of tombstoning into this spike pit/ I dream about the times our expectations failed to meet/ Our hands should be entwined/ Our lives combined/ Like Tulisa said "You only get one chance, don't get nine"/ Remember when I wrote "Fireworks"?/ I was tired of being treated like a jerk/ I know you have your quirks/ But you used them to draw me/ in, then merk/ me/ Brought me back to Earth/ With a bump/ Why did you treat me as if I was a chump?/ Acted as if I'm a cunt?/ With your games, done with this shit, all you made me do was compete/ Against Tara/ Carly and Lara/ In that order. Well you know what? You score a penalty. One - Nil. Ninetieth minute. The referee blows. The crowd roars/ It's over, you won/ I'm done./